In typical Claire style I have to find a meaning or give a name to what I am doing. I have a friend called Hayden and a few months back we were discussing my treatment and my fundraiser and he said to me, 'you know Claire in this instance the faith is out of your hands'. For those who know and love me anything that is out of my hands....ummm...well just can't be. I'm the captain of this ship, I make the decisions for my life! But I thought long and hard about his words and to be honest he is totally right. I have been completely overwhelmed and humbled at the emotional and financial support I have been given to continue my treatment. There are so many people who are hoping and praying for this treatment to be successful that really the 'faith is out of my hands', I can rely on the positive words and faith of others to carry me through this next round. Thank you seems so superficial, I am so grateful and blessed to have this support. thank you! The next step is up to me and to step is what I crave for, one at a time!
I fly out on July 1st for 5 weeks returning on 8th August. Gaye is coming with me (she's my step mum and no not the wicked kind!) Then my Dad is flying over on the 19th July to join us for the remainder of my treatment. I'm feeling a little anxious as I know what to expect but excited thinking what this next round will bring me. What i've learnt so far is that stem cells are slow....so slow...almost painfully slow! What i hoped to achieve in 12 months in reality will probably take 2-3 years and thinking back Dr Geeta did say to me its a 2-3 year program.
Five weeks away from Sabine (my 7 year old daughter) is going to be tough. I'm so proud of her and her strength. She logically knows i need to do this but emotionally she is being challenged.
I know she is loved and safe while I'm away, my guilt is just something I need to put in a box with a tight lid on it while I'm in India.
It will be interesting to get feed back from Dr Geeta and Shiviani (my physiotherapist in India) on my progress, its been 8 months since I was there and I'm sure Karlee (my physio here in Perth) and I are on the right track......talk to you all soon :-)
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Claire,
Congratulations on your second trip to India! I'll be looking forward to your posts. I know exactly what you've been going through these past few weeks (except for the shingles thing), and wish you all the best. You are truly a pioneer and an inspiriation to us all. Stay strong, think strong and be strong! Love from your US "mate."
Have a safe trip Claire. Good luck, we are thinking of you. Look forward to hearing how you are going.
Lots of love
Sam and Bill
if we think of faith as the measure in right choices we have made in a lifetime with our hearts.....tucked away, saved for the days that hold us "helpless"..... surely they return in miricals.......
with you .....hayden
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